Stop Losing? On Purpose?

That's what I have to do. Well, at least after two weeks.

You see I went to try on my wedding dress today. It is definitely too big. Which is good; I'm happy about that. It means I can see progress since I ordered it. And, it's very pretty and I did feel a little bit like a princess. In fact I'm actually feeling very good about the way I'm going to look on my wedding day, so I just hope this feeling lasts. And I hope it lasts when I get all of my pictures back from the wedding day.

But, the woman at the bridal shop told me that I really shouldn't lose anymore weight after the first real fitting in two weeks. At that point, they'll pin everything up and get it ready for cutting, but they won't do any cutting. Then the next week I go in for another fitting to make sure everything is pinned correctly. Then she cuts it, and I go in for my final fitting.

So, if I lose any more weight after she does the second fitting, which is actually in three weeks I guess, then when she cuts it it will still be too big and she'll have to re-cut it. So basically, even though I have almost six weeks until the wedding, I really only have three more to lose all the weight that I want. At best that's like 7 lbs. That sucks. I mean, I'd only have three more weeks after that, and most likely the amount of weight I could lose in those three weeks wouldn't really change the way the dress fits, but I just want it to be perfect. Completely perfect. You know?

I guess what I should really be worrying about is why I'm so obsessed over the numbers of it. It isn't what the number on the scale says, but how I look and feel. And I know that I'm going to look and feel amazing at my wedding no matter what that number on the scale says. I guess I just envisioned myself really hitting it hard and being able to get to 160 or a little over, and now that vision is sort of screwed. Let's face it, it probably wasn't going to happen anyway, but I still had a little glimmer that I could get down there. Eh.

I guess the bottom line is, I'm going to be just fine no matter what my weight is at my wedding. I still want to continue to lose, but I think if I stay where I am or only lose 5 -7 more lbs before the wedding, I'll be okay with it. It's all good. I'm going to just do whatever I can over these next couple of weeks, and then I'm going to enjoy my wedding. Yippee.

P.S. I'm not going to look anything like the chick in the picture. I'll have a soft updo, and obviously I have blonde hair. Also, I will not be rocking the pink choker. I can't really pull that off. :)