Sunday, April 30, 2006

Okay so things have been crappy. Thanks to those of you who commented, it's nice to know I have you guys out there cheering me on. Last night we had our engagement party and it was so much fun. I'll post pics when I get them from my sister. Wow it was crazy. So the bad news is I had another pretty bad weekend. I haven't had a really good weekend in a long time. I actually haven't had a really good day in general in a long time.

So tomorrow is Monday, it's May 1, and it seems like a good day to have a fresh start. Another fresh start. Again. I need to take this seriously. And that means I'm going to make some major changes this week. Workouts are fine, so I don't have to make any big changes there. But my eating on the other hand is not fine. Not at all. Here is my plan for the next two weeks.

1. No alcohol (drinking about a billion margaritas and then coming home and making myself spaghetti at 2 a.m. is not conducive to weight loss).
2. At least one veggie at every meal. This includes breakfast, lunch and dinner.
3. No sugar. This means no mini Hershey bars at the office, no macaroons, no skinny cows. I can have a skinny cow treat next Saturday if I make it through the week successfully.
4. Blog/journal at least every other day.

So these are my goals. This week is really important to me. I have got to get back on the wagon. If I don't, this is never going to happen. I can barely even write this right now. This is just bad. I'm going to start with one good day. Tomorrow will be my one good day.

Plan for Monday
salad, frosted mini wheats
Lean Cuisine, salad
chicken tacos w/ bell peppers
snack: luna bar or yogurt
30 min jog

Sunday, April 23, 2006


I am alive I swear. Things are just hard for me right now so I'm doing the typical weight loss blogger thing of avoiding my blog. I just don't know what to write. I can't focus, I'm not dedicated. I think I'm just so overwhelmed with everything that's going on in my life that I'm finding it hard to give my weight loss the true mindshare it needs.

You see, when I'm really in the groove, losing consistently, it's because weight loss is the center of my attention at all times. I plan, I think about food, I work out. I'm slightly obsessed, but in a good way. Right now I just can't do that. Every day after work I'm either looking at houses or doing something for the wedding, and there just isn't the time to cook and plan and do all of the things I know I should be doing.

Reading through this right now, I know it sounds like a load of whiney excuses. And basically that's what it is. I just need to figure out how to get my shit together. I am working out, which is probably the only thing that's saving me from gaining one thousand pounds. In fact, today I ran 30 minutes without stopping, my longest yet, and was spotted on my bench press by a local weatherman. (I didn't realize it was him until after I'd asked). I'm more confident in what I can do physically, yet I can't seem to stop stuffing my face.

I've made great changes, I really have. The type of foods I'm eating are much better than they used to be. But bottom line is, I'm still consuming to many calories, and that has to change.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

The Wagon

Hey peoples. Sorry I haven't been around in so long. I have to admit, I fell off the wagon hard, starting on Thursday night. I won't go into the details, but it hasn't been pretty. I'm definitely back eating wheat (which I'm okay with by the way) but I also added in sugar and fat including onion rings and Cold Stone which I absolutely should not be eating.

The good news is, it only ended up in a 1 lb gain, but this is definitely not the direction I want to be going. I'm workng hard to get back on track but it's so hard once you fall off. I did have an awesome workout with the trainer tonight, so I'm doing what I can. All in all, I'm not in a great place at the moment. I'll update again when I'm a little more peppy.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Lookit What I Found!

This is so freaking cool. I made myself. You should go make yourself!

*Edited to add: I maintained this week. Better than gaining!

Sunday, April 02, 2006


I'm loving the weekend. So great. And now we have one more hour of sunlight and that just makes things even better. Although technically I did just lose an hour of my life today. Oh well. Things are still going well, although not as great as they were. I took three days off of working out and I wish I didn't do that. I went back today and feel a bit better about it all though.

I did have one little setback. I ordered some new jeans online, in a size 16, so I thought for sure they'd fit and maybe even be a little loose. Whoa, was I mistaken. I could barely pull those suckers up over my fat ass. What the hell? I'm firmly in 14s in all of my work pants, okay maybe except a few, but all my 16's are loose on me. And I have another brand of 16 jeans that is getting fairly loose as well. I'm pissed. Why the hell are sizes like this? I wanted to throw a fit right there in the middle of the living room and yell and scream and pound my fists on the floor. And why, all because some jeans with some arbitrary number on the tag won't fit?

It's effing ridiculous how much these things matter to me. I guess at least I'm acknowledging it and trying to change things. I know I should be focusing on the strength gains I'm making, or how far I can run without stopping, and all that kind of crap, but sometimes I just want to fit in my effing jeans. Damnit.

Okay I'm done now, sorry about that. Maybe they'll fit tomorrow.