Tuesday, June 23, 2009


First off - let me say sorry I haven't been around since my downer post from last week. I was feeling pretty crappy about it, but you guys are right, I am not a failure. So thank you for all of your sweet comments. I needed them.

Things are better this week, although I did spend pretty much the entire day yesterday answering questions for a potential job opp and if I don't hear from them either I'm sure I will probably be sad. But, I guess if it's meant to be it will be. Maybe I'll just be a lady of leisure for the rest of my life. That's actually not sounding too bad now that the sun has finally come out in Denver and the weather is nice.

I went to yoga tonight and that felt great. Yoga is so weird, I never want to go and even when I get there I'm kind of dreading it the whole time, but when I'm done I'm so happy I went. If only I could force myself to go more often. I think I'm just kind of in my happy place when it comes to working out and I don't like changing up my schedule, even though I know I should because the body gets used to the same moves all the time. I'm just loving kickboxing and the classes change fairly often so I think I'm going to stick to that for a while.

Food has been okay, mostly good, although this weekend was tough as you know weekends can be. Tonight I was going to make a chicken orzo salad but when I took the chicken out of the frig it just smelled a little funny, so I decided to chuck it. Better safe than sorry and I do not want salmonella. Instead I did a quick little search for a zucchini recipe and ended up finding this, which was actually pretty good. We accidentally put a little too much garlic in the dressing, so now the boy and I are doing some Internet searches on how to get rid of garlic breath. I gotta say the mint tea just isn't working.

Alright I am boring even myself so I will end this post and go cringe at America's Got Talent. Wow.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Rejection Sucks

I didn't get the job. Second place, again. I guess it came down to me and one other person. Ugh. I know there are a million reasons why it probably wouldn't have been that great of a job anyway, (or as my husband says, it probably would have been "soul crushing") but it still hurts.

And I still feel like a failure. Again.

I found out Monday night, when I got a call from the recruiter. He of course was not helpful at all and had virtually no information about why they chose the other candidate. So I need to call the actual hiring manager and find out if I did something wrong or if it was just my skill set, etc. But I just haven't been able to face it yet. I guess I'll call him this morning.

To top it all off, I weighed in today and I maintained. I'm just kind of feeling crappy all around right now I guess. I'm going to lunch with my mom at the brand new Wh0le F00ds down by her house though, so I guess that will be a treat. And my friend had a healthy baby boy yesterday, so I might get to go visit them in the hospital later this afternoon. That should definitely cheer me up. In the meantime, I'll just pet the dog, go to the gym and try to ward off this funk.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


Oh Saturday. I love you. And I LOVE that my husband is home, all snuggled up with the dog in our bed upstairs. Man I missed that boy. His flight got in around 7 last night, so I picked him up from the airport and we went straight to Chipotle. It was even my choice - I thought for sure he'd be craving it after being in China for so long, but he was kind of blah. I think he was just so tired. I ended up with my usual, a veggie bowl, no rice. Yum. After that, we came home and caught up, looked at his pictures, and went to bed early. And now, almost 12 hours later, he's still sleeping. That's what a 24-hour flight and 14-hour time change will do to you.

I'm up enjoying a coffee/green smoothie/water breakfast and catching up on blogs. I'm thinking about heading to an 11 a.m. kickboxing class too, but I think it kind of depends on whether or not the boy decides to get out of bed because he needs new running shoes and I told him I'd go with him. One thing I know is that if the weather holds and doesn't rain like it has been doing EVERY.SINGLE.DAY we are going on a bike ride. Why? Because I got a new bike this week!

Yay! We've been waiting and waiting for it to come in and it finally did. It's just a cruiser, not for hardcore riding, but mostly for me to be able to ride to the grocery store, the gym, those kinds of places. Oh yeah and to get fro yo. I love me some fro yo.

Truth be told, we are thinking about selling the boy's car and becoming a one-car family while I am out of work. I think I can handle it, especially for the summer, and I know it would be really good for our finances. So, without further ado, here's a new pic! I really want to do the disclaimer thing about how I had already gone for a ride and I wasn't prepared blah blah blah so I don't look my best, but eh, oh well. Actually I guess I just did it.

ANYWAY, I don't know if you can tell, but it has teh awesome colorful seat and fun black and white floral patterns on the rest of it. Oh and the green wheels! I heart it so much.

Time to go crusin'!!!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Weigh In

Weigh in today = down .6. What?!? I am P.O.'d! I have had a fabulous week. I have been working out like a mother. I have been downing green smoothies, haven't touched a french fry or a scoop of ice cream or even a beer! What is going on? I should have lost at least 7 or 8 lbs this week! 


Isn't that the part about losing weight that just sucks? You can work so hard for a full week and only see teeney tiny amounts of progress. But I know, I know, there are a million reasons for it. I'm about to get my period. I'm bloated from soy sauce and miso soup. I'm sore from my workout yesterday so my muscles might be holding water. But still. Still! When you work hard it's nice to see results in terms of the scale going down. And believe me, I could scoot my butt over to the Mexican place down the street for lunch and gain that .6 lbs back in about ten minutes flat. 

Stupid body evolved to hold on to fat in case of a famine. 

Monday, June 08, 2009

Boxing and Babies

I am becoming sort of a kickboxing snob. I'm certainly not the best in the class and I'm still sucking wind most of the time, but I guess I'm sort of a regular now, so it annoys me when shit goes wrong. Or what I perceive to be wrong. Like when the instructor decides to go off on a tangent instead of sticking to the basic routine. A crappy tangent. A tangent that sucks. Stick to the choreography woman! I mean, they've designed it that way for a reason. 

I guess I should try to be flexible and just enjoy my workout, but today I burned almost 100 less calories than I do in a normal class and that just bugs. Anyway, sorry I just had to vent about that. I am really trying not to get annoyed by stupid things like this, but if I say it "out loud" here, then at least it's out there and I can set it free instead of sitting here on my couch fuming about it. 

In other news I had my yearly gyno appointment today, well that was fun. Ugh. I actually appreciate the fact that my doc tries to distract me by just chatting the whole time she is performing the exam, but it just seems weird to be talking about vacations and stuff while her hands are all up in my lady business. I like her a lot though, and it makes me feel good to know I have someone I can trust to go to when I do decide to start trying for a baby. We talked about it some, and just feel like I have so much to think about. I know that it is definitely going to have to be a planned endeavor because I have to be off of the medicine I'm on for my arthritis for at least 3 months before I start trying, and then of course I have to get my IUD removed as well. So even if I wanted to start today, it'd be September before we could actually do anything about it. And I'm definitely not ready to start today. But I have to say, I can feel my clock tickin' a bit. 

It's just so scary to think about getting pregnant. And having a baby. I want it, but it terrifies me. Will I ever not be terrified? I don't know. There's still plenty of time, so I'm not going to worry about it right now if I can help it, but it is definitely crossing my mind more and more often.

Alright I am going to get in bed. Tomorrow morning I'm definitely having a green smoothie - I swapped it for oatmeal this morning and couldn't believe how much I missed it. Nighty night everyone.  

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

You Won't Believe Your Eyes!

OMG. Has anyone seen the cartoon commercial for SlimSh0ts, those little things you drink that look like creamer that supposedly make you lose weight? Well in the commercial, the cartoon lady goes from looking all bloated and round to looking all hourglassy and slim, just by drinking SlimSh0ts! Of course! Why didn't I think of this?!?

I love how at the bottom of the screen it says:

Cartoon dramatization. Results not typical. REAL PEOPLE need diet and exercise to lose fat. 

Hahahahahahaha! So you mean, if we aren't a cartoon, we're actually going to have to eat right and exercise to lose weight? Wow. What a concept. 

I lost 2.4 lbs this week. Just by using SlimSh0ts. No, actually because I'm eating really well I think. Sadly, I attribute a lot of that to the boy being out of town. He's always totally supportive, but I use him as an excuse to eat out, eat crap, etc. So when he's gone it's just all about me - my decisions, my choices. 

I have to say I'm a bit lonely right now, so tonight I'm going to have a few glasses of wine with the girls and catch up on some trashy TV. 3 nights down, 10 to go. Ugh. 

Monday, June 01, 2009

Drinking Vegetables and Blood

Wow I am moving REALLY slowly this morning. Husband left town yesterday early early in the A.M. and of course when he is gone I sleep like absolute crap. I don't know what it is. I just lay in bed, thinking about how I should be sleeping, but scanning my eyes around the room like a crazy person at every little noise, every little creak. And my house was built in 1890, so trust me there are a lot of creaks. The dogger is also super vigilant - his ears are constantly perked up listening for something or someone. He's just trying to be the man of the house I guess. 

This weekend ended up being really nice except for Friday night. Friday night sucked, mostly because we ended up staying in to watch the game, which meant ordering a pizza, and I totally went overboard. To the point where I was so full I couldn't sleep, woke up feeling like a shit sandwich, with massive guilt to boot. And the Nuggets lost. Overall it just sucked.

I was determined to have a better day on Saturday, so I woke up, made myself a nice big green smoothie and then we set out toward the garden center to purchase vegetables for the garden! We spent the better part of Saturday weeding, tilling and planting, and it was hard work, but I am thrilled because the garden is planted.

Aren't they the cutest?

I know it doesn't look like much, but this is our first year so we decided we would start small, see how it goes and then go from there. In the back we have one tomato plant and one raspberry bush. After that it's rows of cucumbers, zucchini, butternut squash, jalapeno and cabbage. On the bottom level, which you can't really see, are the herbs: lavender, sage, rosemary, basil and chives. Yum! I only bought things I thought we would really eat, so we'll see what comes of it. We spent $88 on all the veggies, soil amendment and a few tools that we didn't have, so we'll see if we're able to make that back. Of course it's going to take 2-3 months for any of this stuff to be ready for harvest, except some of the herbs I guess, but I think it's going to be great. In the meantime, we're still getting our CSA delivery, which I am just loving. I am a vegetable whore right now.

Saturday night we had a low key dinner w/ my sis and his bro, then I did laundry watched the boy pack. He is going to be in China for two weeks, and it took him two hours to pack, but he fit it all in his little carry-on suitcase. There is no way in hell I would be able to do that. Sunday we were up super early getting him off to the airport, but I went back to bed at about 6:30 and slept until 10, which was awesome. I love sleep.  

Yesterday I pretty much spent the entire day home alone save one trip to the gym and grocery. I am a slug, but I don't care. I spent an obscene amount of time in front of the TV watching True Blood on demand. OMG have you guys seen that show? Why did I not know about it? I guess Season 2 starts in a couple of weeks, so I'll be trying to get totally caught up on Season 1 before that. I love it! I love the vampires and the Southern accents (which are really terrible for the most part) and I love the S.E.X. It is out of control dirty and I swear I spend half of each episode totally mortified, but it is awesome. So yeah, there's that.

I'm really only four episodes in, so I've got a long way to go, but they are an hour long each and I've got to watch The Bachelorette tonight too so I'm really going to have to monitor my TV watching while the boy is out of town. My brain is going to rot! Like it isn't rotting anyway.I just want to know what will happen! Who is killing these women? Will Sookie do it with Bill? Will that evil chick vampire bite her first? Is it my imagination or can Sookie's boss whose name I forgot turn into a dog? So many questions.

 Okay I am off to lunch with Jess! Have a good Monday!