Monday, February 11, 2008

Canned

So I jumped gung ho into blogging again (well for me at least) and then I disappeared again. WTF, you ask? Well, bad times. Bad times.

Two Friday's ago I got laid off. As in, sort of fired. Well not really fired, as all my friends and family keep telling me, but laid off. The entire marketing team got the ax, and it feels like getting fired, but really it's just getting laid off due to lack of money and what not. I know it's not personal, and I know it's just business, but still it was sort of an ego blow. That's what you get when you work for a startup I guess.

I've always been that Type A, highly competitive type. And honestly, losing my job has made me feel pretty effing inadequate.

So of course the night it happened I went out and got utterly toasted, starting with some martinis and then beer and then who knows what after that. That set off a weekend of eating a load of crapola, culminating with a cold that hit me last Sunday morning like a ton of bricks. Put all of this together and I have been fairly incapacitated for the past week or so.

I was able to get my eating back on track and miraculously only gained .4 last week, after a stellar loss of 2.8 the week before that I never reported here, so I'm okay with that. The cold has been brutal, so I haven't been able to work out as I planned, but I got back on track with that today as well. The cough remains and my chest isn't completely cleared up, but I'm doing much better.

The loss of the job has sort of put me in an introspective mood - trying to figure out what I want to do with myself and how I'm going to sort out my future. Of course the loss of my salary is going to hurt, but luckily we can survive on my husband's for the time being, although it won't be too much fun.

So while I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do, I'm taking this time to really focus on myself and my health. I've been grocery shopping on a budget and cooking every meal at home, and I'm enjoying getting the extra sleep and spending time with the dogger. This week I'm going to spend a good chunk of time at the gym, hang out with some of my stay-at-home mom friends that I don't get to see very often, and read Michael P0llan's new book. Oh yeah, and try to remain positive. And cook. :)

So losing my job wasn't exactly what I was planning on for 2008, but maybe I can make the best of it.

4 comments:

jodi said...

sorry about the job but maybe it's a blessing in disguise... your calling could be elsewhere so take this time to figure out what you really want to do... :o)

p.s. i probably would've gotten tosted too... ;o)

Kim said...

Hi Jeni -

I agree with Jodi. I think that this has happened because you are meant to be someplace else. Take the time that you have between jobs to really sort things out. Your eating, your exercise, and whatever it is that makes you the happiest. I think that this is indeed a blessing - now it's up to you to make the most of it. :)

Also - keep taking care of that cold of yours. And don't stay away so long - gosh darnit I was worried about you!!!

Fatinah said...

sorry 'bout the job.

K said...

Sorry to hear about your bad times. And the cold...

Time off work can be either terrible or great for maintaining healthy habits - sounds like you've got off to a good start (after the natural reaction period!) I hope everything feels better soon... and I'm sure you'll soon see some new avenues opening up on the job front.