Saturday

Okay so looking back on my post from Thursday I was really pumped and maybe my goals are a little too lofty, but I've learned that I do need to aim high in order to get there. So I'm sticking with the plan. So far it's been going great, I'm all sunshine and lollipops. Or whatever.

I'm a little nervous about tonight because it's one of my friend's b-days and people are meeting to get started at my sister's house and then going out downtown. These girls are mainly my sister's friends, a little younger than I am (well really only one year), and they're still fairly in to partying and acting crazy on the weekends and having super hung-over Sundays. I guess for me it just isn't worth it anymore. I've always been kind of low-key and never one to want to go out hardcore every weekend, but I definitely had my share of days like that. Now I'm all domestic and shit and I just want to stay home and hang out with the boy and my dogger. I guess it's just part of my introverted personality. I'm a small group type of gal.

Anyway, so one of my goals for this challenge is to not have any alcohol, and tonight is going to be my first true test. I'm sure I'll get a ton of "why aren't you drinking?" and "C'mon, just have one," etc. For me, it'll probably be easier to just have a diet sprite and pretend it has vodka in it than dealing with all of that crap. Why are people so weirded out when someone decides not to partake? I think it's because people feel sort of bad about their decision in some way, so they want others to do the same thing. It's like when you go out with a bunch of girlfriends and everyone has nachos and french fries and and then one girl gets a salad or something. Suddenly the mood dies and everyone feels like crap because they've made a bad decision.

I don't really know how to deal with situations like these because I've been on both sides of the fence and I know it sucks either way. For me the easiest thing is just to avoid talking about it. But that's hard too because I don't want to hide the healthy lifestyle I've chosen. But I also don't want it to define me in social situations. This time in my life is probably the one time I could get away with being like "I'm dieting for the wedding," but I don't really want to say that because there are so many other reasons I'm doing this. It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change. Right?

So my plan for today is to go work by butt off at the gym, come home and have a healthy lunch/dinner and then go over with a plan to go hang out, but leave fairly early. The boy knows that I'm nervous about it, so he'll be there to help. But I can do this. It's what I want to do so I'm going to do it, no matter what everyone else is doing. Hope you guys all have a great weekend!